For Mother's Day, I was blessed to be able to spend that day with my Mommy. This is a rare event, living states apart. It was so wonderful, just to be with her and have her all to myself for much of the time! :) We went to Sunday School and Church together too, it was so great! Thank you, Lord for that blessing! The reason I went home, was to celebrate my niece, Hannah and her husband, Denver having their first baby, Kane Michael! What an exciting time!
While I was gone, my gorgeous man planted a garden, this was part of my Mother's Day gift. He normally plants one, and he also knows how much I love it! Especially the maters! For those of you that do not live in the South, that is tomatoes, a true gift from God! This morning, after my quiet time, I waddled on out to the garden to pull weeds. How could I have known when I went out there, that the simple task of pulling weeds, was a divine appointment with my Father? As I started pulling weeds, I asked Him to remove any weeds in my life....to first make me aware of what they are and get rid of them. The garden was full of weeds - just like my life. Fear. Self-Loathing. Selfishness. Arrogance. Impatience. Judging. The list is long, very long. Most of the weeds were easy to pull, then I got to my beloved maters....they had a cage of sorts around them (to help them not fall over, they get a bit heavy). I asked cute hubby if I could remove those so I could get to the weeds easier and he said no, it had to stay and to do the best I could. As I went over and under the cage, getting scratched by the wire to get the evil weeds away from my maters......all I could think about is the lengths that my Father goes to to get my beloved strong holds out of my life - I have a cage around certain things and that makes it a harder and more painful process for me. Fear is in a cage, it tops my list, it is my biggest weed.....fear that I will do the wrong thing, say the wrong thing, sound stupid, look stupid, fear of failure, fear of not mattering. Fear of losing my people......the large child has gone camping this weekend, with his people, somewhere in the mountains. Before they left last night, I instructed two of them to let me know when they arrived.....it is almost noon the next day and we still have not heard from them. Hubby says I am sure they don't have cell service where they are. Fear - which has crippled me more than a few times in my life, just about got the best of me this morning, then I had my divine appointment. God's timing is perfect!! This is likely why I wake up many mornings singing the Zach Williams song, Fear Is A Liar. Because he IS!!! Self-Loathing is in a cage, it is also one of my biggest weeds.....because of the life I have lived and the despicable woman I once was. I know that woman is long gone, and that I have been redeemed, I am a daughter of the King and He loves me more than I could ever imagine. It is a love that I can't wrap my head around....as rotten as I have been - still He loves me unconditionally, He died for me, He fights for me, daily! But....that weed invades more often than I like and once again, my Father lovingly removes it and renews me. About half way through my weed pulling, my back was sore, my knees were sore, and I started to get hot and sweaty, the sun had reached the garden. I despise being hot and sweating and as a pale pasty red-headed one....we do NOT love the sun - At. All. At this point, I was about ready to stop and head in to the air-conditioned house. About ready to do a less than perfect job - to give up. I was reminded how easy I give up and stop fighting when God is pulling my weeds out. When He is refining me and it becomes painful, I would rather just turn on Netflix, shut it out and stop the process. And of course, I don't want to give up my beloved maters! I have put a cage around them, they are staying! Gosh - hard-headed woman! What strong-hold do you have a cage around? Fear, like me? Unforgiveness? Bitterness? Sadness? Anger? Whatever it is, let God pull it out of your life....let Him heal what hurts you have - the things that are consuming you. He desires for you to have joy and to have an abundant life! Jesus tell us in John 10:10.....The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. Thank You, Father for our divine appointment this morning. Let me not miss our appointments, help me to see clearly through the busy. Draw me nearer to You! Now - go pull some weeds with your Father.
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